Friday, April 14, 2006
its jus so nice to spend time with you girls again. it keeps my mind clear and free from the things i tried so hard not to think everydae. it jus goes awae with all the laughters and stupid things we do and laugh about arnd. thank you so much for that lovely evening. four times a year is alwaes nv enough. i miss those times when we had fun tgt. those times back in cedar. hmph. seriously. i wish i cud turn back time.
argh. im feeling nostalgic again. there are so many reasons for turning back time. so many so many so many.
sometimes, i wished i know wad exactly to do and sae at that point of time. i wished i had the ability to make things better. make people feel better. or even make people tell me wads bothering them. what exactly they are thinking. so that i nid not nid to guess. to assume things. to be the fooled by myself.
its my fault. to assume. things to be the way they are actualli not. i duno. its alwaes my fault. i wished i had the courage to be truthful to you. to tell you wad i feel. to let you know all that is hidden underneath the facade. maybe its the fear that is holdin me back. the fear of losing. of knowing the heartless truth.


shedded at 9:35 AM

MYSELF!
Felicia
Victoria-JC
Seventeen-Plus
Eighteen-October
Feli_cia36@hotmail.com
LOVES!
Volleyball
Fei Fei
Family
Xiao Ming
Years in Cedar
Mahjong Gang
Being Loved
WINNING(money and competitions)
EAT!

HATES!
Liars
Being Unwanted
To Lose
Having Regrets
Nightmares
all the IF ONLYs